Saturday 8 September 2012

Anxious

I don't know if I should be writing this, but I'm going to.

I'm scared.

Scared about starting my MA.

I'm sure that's just natural, because it's something new, although I'm going back to the same place and living with good friends and things like that, and going back to a place I love, but that end of summer anxiety is kicking in, and I'm scared.

I want to do it. I really do. But part of me, that horrible doubtful part, is wondering why I'm doing it - why I'm putting myself through this. Do I really need to do it? Will I gain anything by it?

Too late really to have those doubts.

I mean, I'm excited. I'm definitely excited too. I do want to do it!

It's just things are going to be different. Of course they are. But it's going to be good. It's just these stupid anxieties and nerves. I feel a bit better now....

Also, I got a new camera yesterday so I have been snapping away and it is all very exciting. I love it! It's a bridge camera, so it takes awesome photos. And Murray's through to the US open final. Awesome.

p.s. Next time I post, I'll be back in Exeter!!

4 comments:

  1. I'm sure you'll be fine!! Nerves and fear are all part of life, especially when doing an MA (congrats!). I was nervous going back to uni for my third year, and going back to placement, but now I'm there I am loving it.
    Good luck with your MA, it will be so worth it :)

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    1. Thank you so much :) I hope so! Fingers crossed. Thanks for your support :D xxx

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  2. I know you're going to have a wonderful time and learn so much doing this MA--that sounds amazing. Good luck battling the nerves. And yay for Murray making it to the final!

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    1. Thank you!! I hope so. Will be fine once I've started I think :) Thank you very much :) Yay I know! xxx

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