Friday 12 October 2012

Hating Myself



I know I already blogged today I’m sorry. But I just wanted to share something/ask advice. I’ve had a day today where I’ve just been creating. I’ve been writing, doing art, getting work done, doing reading and all of that. So I have done a lot. 

I am having one of those days where I am quite happy not to see people, and I have got loads done, but i still have that feeling, like I haven’t done enough. Like I haven’t written enough poetry, or got enough ideas and I need to write more,and I feel bad about it, so I sit here trying to, and it won’t just come. I don’t know if I’m expressing this right, but I make myself feel so bad for not creating enough, for not writing enough. Or I think that I’ve done plenty of poetry, but not enough prose, and today I need to just write something, but what and nothing comes. Or I need to editing, or whatever... it’s like I spread myself far too thin and try to do EVERYTHING and then feel like I havne’t done what I want to do, even though some days when I’m busy I’m happy to write a few hundred words or a few lines, or scribble a drawing. And I'm happy with that. But days like today, I hate myself and although I feel good about what I've done, there are so many different things I want to achieve maybe I don't do them fully enough. Does this make ANY sense to anyone? 

4 comments:

  1. Oh my GOD I HATE that feeling! It is the worst! I honestly have no advice because I get this way too! :( I'm sorry and I hope it goes away. *virtual hug*

    Love,
    gwen

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    1. Hey Gwen! No worries, I'm just glad to know I'm not the only one.. it does suck, but feeling a lot better about it all today, so yay :) Thank youuuu :) xxxx

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  2. Actually, woah. I just went back and reread this and I had exactly this kind of day yesterday! :( It suckkkkkeeeeddd. I felt so unproductive even though i made some stuff... bleahugh

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    1. Oh no! Those days really are rubbish aren't they? :( I'm sorry! It's one of those feelings I just never know how to shrug or what to do :/ Hope today is a better day for you. xx

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