Anxious

I don't know if I should be writing this, but I'm going to.

I'm scared.

Scared about starting my MA.

I'm sure that's just natural, because it's something new, although I'm going back to the same place and living with good friends and things like that, and going back to a place I love, but that end of summer anxiety is kicking in, and I'm scared.

I want to do it. I really do. But part of me, that horrible doubtful part, is wondering why I'm doing it - why I'm putting myself through this. Do I really need to do it? Will I gain anything by it?

Too late really to have those doubts.

I mean, I'm excited. I'm definitely excited too. I do want to do it!

It's just things are going to be different. Of course they are. But it's going to be good. It's just these stupid anxieties and nerves. I feel a bit better now....

Also, I got a new camera yesterday so I have been snapping away and it is all very exciting. I love it! It's a bridge camera, so it takes awesome photos. And Murray's through to the US open final. Awesome.

p.s. Next time I post, I'll be back in Exeter!!

End of the Summer Feeling

The end of the summer is drawing closer.

And although I want to go back, now that I've confirmed the date, even though it was when I wanted to go back, I feel funny about it and don't want the summer to be over. It's always the way isn't it?

My brother went back to school yesterday, and the sense that I still get of back to school nerves is ever present. September is a funny time.

I already feel sad about the loss of the summer - although this week promises to be hot, that's just teasing you know?!

Does anyone else feel like this?

On the other hand  - went to the Paralympics on Monday which was amaaaazing, and going to the HARRY POTTER STUDIOS TOMORROW. So excited! Going back to Hogwarts!!!!!!